Something Real

I want to let it all go and let you in, but I’m afraid to go thru this again and feel anything, and everything and all that’s in between
Lies here beneath the hidden fibers of the cotton sheets and endless caverns in my mind that I hide my most precious thoughts from you and I
So I try to bend the rules a bit and let you in, a little at a time, to take that chance, to see where it goes, to venture down the cavern with a soft light to guide my way to you and let my heart feel something real
Something true, to stop hiding from the truth and to learn to smile again like a breath of fresh air that you’ve brought to my life that I can’t imagine is really happening
I look for a sign, for anything to stop me as I continue on but there is none and I feel safe to cross the two way street once again, this time without looking, after a lifetime of hidden caves and prison bars clamped down tight over my heart in fear that I’d hurt again and have to start over yet again
But now I take your hand and know that its safe to come out from hiding, to let you in, to fear no more and to hope that although I know forever is not now, that you brought me a smile where there once was a frown and that I can admit I feel something real once again.